A Loud Heart - Ember lyrics

[Guante] One month, seventeen days ten minutes From the time I decided to test my limits On the wagon but it moves so slow No radio, no company, no—just the road I need to figure this out, hopes and lingerin' doubts It's so cold in the winter this house Is so old and the floorboards creak when nobody's walkin' Though even ghosts don't come around too often I pa** time starin' outside at the sky At the moon as it rises I Stay hungry inside wakin' up so early But ain't nothin' to eat but cold turkey So even though I ain't thirsty I just drink a little water and I hope that it's working [Claire Taubenhaus] …There was a fire I put out So it wouldn't burn us down But an ember hung around And it's still burning, even now [Guante] But this is not a song about a breakdown This is not a song about love I can quit any time that I want to And I'll tell you when I've had enough… [Hook - Claire Taubenhaus] Tell me what's missing when I'm not kissing you When we're just talkin' about what we're goin' through I shouldn't need to touch you to be satisfied But when I said we could be just friends I lied… [Guante] Drownin', sinkin' down inch by inch in The sea that apparently there's other fish in The definition of addiction is this When you'd k** for the thing that's k**ing you I really do swear a single sip of what I tasted on your lips Would help me come to grips with the fact that this is it Twelve steps from the kitchen to the bedroom TV preacher say He tests you to bless you I ain't Job I need a rescue Rent's due but can't focus on nothing except you When I turn the lights off in the apartment I halfway expect you to find me in the darkness It just still feels like something is missin' And sometimes I wonder what the f** was I thinkin' And sometimes I wonder was it love or addiction And sometimes I wonder is there much of a difference [Claire Taubenhaus] …When you ask what's on my mind I shake my head, I say nothing, say I'm fine ‘cause if you knew that it was you And it was all the time I guess I'm scared of what I'd find, terrified [Guante] But this is not a song about a breakdown This is not a song about love I can quit any time that I want to And I'll tell you when I've had enough [Claire Taubenhaus] Tell me what's missing when I'm not kissing you [Guante] But this is not a song about a breakdown [Claire Taubenhaus] When we're just talkin' about what we're goin' through [Guante] This is not a song about love [Claire Taubenhaus] I shouldn't need to touch you to be satisfied [Guante] I can quit any time that I want to [Claire Taubenhaus] But when I said we could be just friends I lied… [Guante] I can quit anytime I want to